A Lesson To Be Learned Again!

One week I was preparing to go to assembly with one of the groups I am affiliated with. As I was preparing to go I began to fret. I began to worry that I didn’t have the right clothes or that I would not fit in. I was worried that my clothes would not be fine enough. I had all kinds of worries.
As I was trying to figure out what I was going to take and wondering if it would be dressy enough God began what to do what he does best. He began to talk with me. He reminded me I was more concerned about what people thought instead of being concerned about what I was going to learn at this assembly. I was more concerned about fitting in than I was about spending a weekend with other Christian women and with him.
Proverbs 29:25 tells us, “It is dangerous to be concerned with what others think of you, but if you trust in the Lord, you are safe.”  God does not want us to spend our time worrying about what others think. If we are spending all our time worrying about what others think we don’t have time to praise him or worship him.
I had to remember, this was not about what we wear it was about who we are and what we are doing. God does not concern himself with what we wear. He is more concerned about our relationship with him and our time spent with him.
If I go to Assembly and while studying His words, I am concerned about my clothing I am not going to get anything out of the classes I am taking. I will be meeting new women and making new friends. I can’t greet women warmly if all I am concerned about is making the right impression on them. The impression I should be concerned about is am I reflecting God’s love? Do they see Christ in me or do they see a woman worrying about fitting in?
We all know while on earth Christ did not try to fit in. He did his own thing. That is what we are called to do. We are called to not necessarily do our own thing, but to follow in Christ’s footsteps.
God reminded me once again I am not to be in this world.1 John 2:15-17 “Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father but are from this world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever.”

So I went back to packing with a different attitude. This time while packing I was not concerned so much with what I was taking to wear. Instead, I began to pray for the right attitude as I went to Assembly. I started asking God to help me hear the things I needed to hear. I started praying for a blessing.
I have gone through this lesson many times. We, as women, often worry about what other women think about us. What amazes me those same women often are worried about what we think of them. I suggest we start a new movement among women. Let’s all start being more concerned about reflecting God’s love and light and worry less about what we are wearing. If we do that then God’s love and light will shine through us and the world will begin to change.
My husband watches a show that talks about the Celebrities. I despise the show. I often leave the room. One night as I was walking through they were talking apparel. I heard them say these are the “must haves” for the fall and winter season. They were trying to convince women these are the things we must have in our wardrobe to fit in. No, I don’t think so. The only “must have” items I need in my wardrobe is a Godly attitude and a clean heart with a right Spirit.
Men, I hope you have not dropped out of this conversation. I know some men who are just as concerned about what they wear as women are. There are children who are being impressed upon to wear certain brands or dress a certain way in order to fit in. It’s not about fitting in, in this world. We need to create a new style…an armor of God style. Umm…just saying.
I know this won’t be the last time I am consumed with what I am wearing or if I fit in. God knows this is the one area I haven’t gotten accomplished yet, but I am better than I was. I am just not there yet. If you are like me, be better than me; stop worrying about what’s on the outside and start working on reflecting God’s love and light on the inside. That’s all that matters.
If people judge us for what we wear or what we can bring to the table then do we really want to spend our time in a relationship with them? That relationship will only last as long as we are in compliance with them. The only relationship that should matter is the only one that REALLY matters and that my friend, is God.
Dear God, it amazes me how you teach me through everyday events and circumstances in my life. I know there are some lessons I just don’t get or it takes me forever to get it. This is one of them. For me, it’s about acceptance. I have been accepted into the greatest relationship known to man; it’s no longer about being accepted, it’s about knowing I have been accepted and then living that way. Thank you for loving me for who I am. May I reflect God’s love and light as I meet, study and fellowship with others. Amen

Following In My Husband’s Footsteps

My husband and I have limited time together. He is working six days a week. When we get a chance, we do things together. I make sacrifices and he does too. One of the things he loves to do is hunt. I have gone with him on numerous trips.
This weekend, we spent a day together in the country at a friend’s place. We did multiple tasks on the farm and in the evening we went pig hunting from a stand. In order to get to this stand, we walked a mile or so to get back to it. My husband asked me to stay behind him as we walked to the stand. He wanted me to do this so he could see any danger that was ahead and keep me from harm. He knew the area. We would go left and then right. We went straight a few times, but we were constantly moving. We had to avoid the ruts in the field and the other many things that kept us from going in a straight line.
As I was walking, I was reminded that this is exactly what God wants us to do. He wants us to follow him. He knows the dangers we face and wants to protect us. We can’t see what is ahead of us; only God can do that. Proverbs 3:6 says this, “God will direct your steps.” If we follow him, he will direct us on the route we should take. Now as we were walking, I noticed we still had it rough sometimes. It wasn’t the smoothest path. I was reminded that even in life when we follow Jesus, we will still have some rough spots that we will have to walk through.
There were times as we were walking that I walked a little faster and found myself walking next to my husband. Even though he enjoyed me walking beside him he really wanted me to follow. Not because he was egotistical, but he couldn’t protect me. We’d be walking into danger together and he’d not be able to protect me. That’s the way it is with Christ. We are to follow him and allow him to lead us. We are not on his level. We can’t see what is ahead of us. It’s best if we follow.
When we first started the walk back to the stand, I was excited and walked ahead of my husband. What I didn’t know was exactly where I was going. I had a general direction but wasn’t exactly sure where I was to end up at. That is when he suggested I follow him. There have been times in my life I have jumped out ahead of Christ and decided to go my own way. I was reminded that I don’t always know the way and don’t know what is ahead of me. If I want the same destination that Christ wants for me, it’s best to follow him.
We got to the tree stand and opened the windows. Now, since I am a country girl, the view was breathtaking; some might not think so. It was so peaceful. All that we heard was nature’s singing from whatever creature was out there. I heard my first armadillo! I didn’t get to see him, but I heard him. When we reach our destination, after following Christ, I am told it will be breathtaking. It will be worth the wait. “But it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him…” 1 Corinthians 2:9 I can’t begin to describe the peace I experienced or felt while looking out on God’s creation. I can’t even imagine what heaven will be like.
After pig hunting, we had to walk back the mile or so to camp. It was dark; pitch black. I was a little fearful about walking back in the dark. My husband who is prepared for everything, had his light with him. Again, I walked in the back; following him with his light shining so we both could see through the darkness. Again, God came to me and reminded me he is my light in the darkness when I experience it. “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not over come it.” John 1:5 The light brightened the darkness and the darkness was not so scary. The darkness did not overtake us. That’s the way it is with Christ and the light he gives us. Even in our darkest times, his light brightens our path and we are able to see again. We made it safely back to our vehicles for the long ride home.
It had been a long day and I was so ready to rest for the night. I was sweaty and smelly. I knew I needed a shower before hitting the bed. While in the shower, God reminded me we are to come to him when we are weary and he will give us rest. (Matthew 11:28-30) He provides rest for us along the way on this journey. We just need to rest in him.
The shower felt so good as the dirt ran off. I again was reminded how wonderful it is when we go to Christ and he cleans us with his grace and love. (Ezekiel 36:25). When we come to Christ and confess our sins, he is so good to clean us and make us pure again. We can feel good about ourselves again.
After a good hot shower and yes, I had to have a good cup of hot tea, I went in and fell asleep. It was a peaceful night of rest after being reminded of God’s goodness and his love. I was reminded of following him, his light lighting the darkness and how good it feels to confess and be clean once more. I was able to rest in Him and know everything’s all right when I follow the one who wants to lead.
It’s always a good day when I am able to be with my husband. It’s even better when God uses those times to speak and share with me. God is good all the time. God speaks often; we just don’t listen often.
Dear God: Thank you for the times spent with loved ones and the experiences you provide for us. Thank you for taking those experiences and sprinkling them with little reminders and messages. It’s good to hear from you. Thank you for taking the lead and allowing me to follow you. You know what is ahead of me and your better prepared to handle those things. Thank you for the light that you provide in those times of darkness. You are a good and loving Father and I praise you always. Amen


Just over four years ago today, my daughter called me quite upset. She had received some unexpected news. She was pregnant again! Most people would be excited, except she already had her hands full with three boys; the youngest being under 2. Her husband had the procedure most men had, but apparently, God was not done with them just yet. When she went for her sonogram and saw the face of this newborn child that God had blessed her with! She was the perfect mom and soon became excited and started planning for this surprising adventure. Turns out this child was to be another boy. My daughter and son-in-law now have four very active little boys ranging in age from 4 (today) to 10.
As I was thinking about his birthday and what a surprise he was, I began to think about all the little-unexpected surprises God gives us. They are all around us; some we see and some we miss. Some we are disappointed at the surprise and then look back and see what a joy it was.
For instance, one of the surprises is a rainbow after the rain. I am always disappointed when it rains for days on end. If it’s not raining then it’s cloudy. There are times after a rain shower the sun comes out and we step outside to see a beautiful rainbow. I know it can be explained by the weatherman, but I think to think it is an unexpected surprise from God. God reminds us in Genesis 9:13, “I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.”
I think about the surprise of forgiveness and his lack of memory. We mess up and hold on to it for what seems like forever, but once we confess it to God it’s gone. He has wiped the slate clean and doesn’t even remember we did it. It’s no longer in his memory. It may still be in ours, but in his mind, it’s gone. 1 John 1:9, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
There are times I can’t even love myself. For whatever reason, I get in a funk and think I am unlovable. Maybe it’s because I messed up or maybe it’s because I am lonely or for whatever reason, it just doesn’t matter. Those times God comes along and shares this secret with me, “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39.
One day I was in the hospital with another daughter in Indiana. She delivered her baby and was in stress. She had a seizure right before my eyes. Now I had not seen anyone have a seizure before and it scared me to death. As the doctors and nurses were working with her, I was out in the hall praying for peace. My husband was still in Texas and I was alone. A few seconds passed and I received a phone call from a dear friend in Indiana. She called me because God had placed it in her heart to call and ask if I was okay. When I told her no, she immediately went into prayer. By the time we finished I was calm and at peace. God gives us surprises through friends calling just when we need them. What a surprise this call was. I had not planned on calling anyone. I couldn’t even think, but God knew what I needed and surprised me. This isn’t the only time I have received a phone call that I wasn’t expecting and needed it.
Just recently I went on a fishing trip early in the morning. I wasn’t expecting anything special. What God surprised me with was more than I expected. The beautiful sunrise, the fellowship of my husband and the witness of God has given the guide was an unexpected surprise.
If we look at things from a different perspective we can see God surprises us all the time. I was not happy about coming to Texas and leaving family behind, but God surprised me and this has been one of the most exciting adventures I have been on.
Some surprises are not what we expected or wanted. Like the death of a child or a spouse. Those are unexpected surprises we can do without. In those times, we can find God sprinkling surprises around us all the time. It may be a friend who comes without asking and stays by our side doing those things we aren’t capable of. It may be the surprise of peace and calm for those first few days. I am always surprised by the amount of food that comes to our homes when a loved one has died. You don’t always think about cooking or fixing a meal. Then the door bell rings and you are surprised by all the food that shows up at your door. I am always surprised by all the kindness and love that God surrounds you with during those difficult times. They are not the surprises we like, but God makes sure we can get through those unexpected surprises.
Surprises are things that happen that you didn’t plan on. God’s grace is one of them. God offers us grace when we least expect it. God’s strength is given when we least expect it. God’s peace comes to us just when we think we can’t go on anymore.
When is the last time you’ve received an unexpected surprise? I know all of us have at one time or another. Can you see how God was involved in your surprise either by offering it or helping you get through it?
We have been blessed by Luke’s birth even though he was a surprise. He has been and is a handful; all boy – full of energy. He is never still. My son-in-law once joked if they had Luke first he would have been the last. God’s hand was in this little package and he has turned out to be nothing but a joy to all his little life has touched. God touches our lives with surprises. How we deal with them is what makes them a blessing.
I challenge you to journal the next surprise. What did God teach you through these unexpected surprises?
Dear God: I thank you for all the little ones that came unexpected and for their parents. May you bless each unexpected surprise. Give us grace when we least expect it, bring us a shower of love when we feel unloveable and bring us peace when life throws us those surprises that are not needed or wanted. Thank you for the surprise of a rainbow after the rain. May it remind us of the covenant you have with your people. Amen.

I Am Not A Morning Person, But This May Change My Mind

One more fishing story before I move on. This one will find some of you chuckling and others will nod in agreement.
I am not a morning person. I love the lights of the night and seeing the stars. I am a night person. That being said, when my husband told me we had to get up at 4 a.m. to go on a fishing trip, I was a bit disturbed. However, since it was a gift and fishing trip, I was willing to do it. Against what I am used to doing, I went to bed at 8 p.m. I wanted to be fresh and wide awake the following day. I didn’t want to have to fight sleepiness.
We made it to our destination on time. It was still pretty dark. The day was getting brighter. As I stood on the edge of the water waiting for us to board the boat, I noticed the sun peeking up over the water. It was something rare for me to see. I suddenly realized how beautiful it was! I was fascinated by this new phenomenon. I was mesmerized by the sun and its beauty.
We soon got on the boat before the sun was completely up. I kept watching the sun. Finally, the sun was up over the water enough to be able to see the reflection of it on the water. It was beautiful! I realized how much I have missed by not getting up and seeing the sunrise. The reflection on the water sparkled. I was taken back by all of the beauty and the brightness of the reflection from the sun. I hold that memory dear in my heart.
As I sat there I could very clearly hear God say, “That is what you are to do. You are to reflect my glory in you.” I felt God’s love in a new and fresh way.
2 Corinthians 3:18 reminds us, “So, all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord who is the Spirit makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.” Once we become Christians, the veil is removed and we can see clearly the glory of the Lord. As we see God’s glory, we are to reflect that so others can see his glory in us. Just as I looked upon the water and saw the reflection of the sun, we are to be a reflection of God’s glory so others may see the beauty of God in us.
We are called as Christians to reflect not only God’s glory but his love as well. “God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16 God is a God that loves. We know that God is love. If we have turned our lives over to God, then we can be assured God loves us. If God loved us so much that he allowed his only Son to die for us, what right do we have not to reflect his love for others?
As I was thinking about this and trying to remember all that I took in, one thing I don’t remember is seeing the reflection on the water after the sun was completely up. Maybe it was still there and I missed it or I was too busy catching fish. I just don’t remember seeing it later in the day. As I thought about this, I was reminded there are times in our lives we lose the reflection of God in our lives. It may be because of busyness, or raising children, or careers, or whatever. We just get to the point where we have lost God’s glory in our lives. It’s in those times we need to get off by ourselves and watch a beautiful sunrise and be reminded of His glory. I would love to get up every morning and watch a beautiful sunrise, but even if I did, where I live it wouldn’t be as impressive. I live in a neighborhood and it’s not always easy to see the sun rise. But this adventure has made me realize there are times I need to get away and find a place where I can watch the sunrise so I can be reminded of God’s glory and my calling.
I cannot put into words the beauty of that morning. I cannot put into words the love I felt from God during those brief few minutes. All I can do is encourage you to get up one morning, drive to a place where you can see the sun rise and allow God’s glory to flow through you. Let that time be a reminder of how we are to be reflectors of God’s glory and his love.
I told our guide this would not be the last fishing trip we took and it certainly won’t be the last sunrise I see. There is something peaceful in seeing a beautiful sunrise. I am just sorry it took me all these years to realize it. The great thing about God is he is always waiting for us to step into his glory; no matter how long we take to do it.
I challenge you to get up and watch the sunrise one morning. Better yet, find a lake or a body of water and watch the reflection on the water as the sun rises. Allow God to speak to you and allow God’s peace and his glory flow through you. Close your eyes and feel the love he has for you. But, don’t leave it there. Go out into the world and reflect God’s glory so others may see him through you.
Dear God: I am so grateful for the opportunity to see the sunrise on the water. To see the reflection of the sun on the water and watch as it sparkled and danced about. Thank you for the reminder that I too am to be a reflection of the Son’s light. I am to reflect your glory and share your love with others. Remind me to catch a sunrise when the glow of the God’s glory begins to dim in my life. Thank you for loving me just as I am. Amen

Ministry in a Fishing Boat?

“Come, follow me, Jesus said, and I will make you fishers of men. “ Mark 1:17
In one of my past blogs, I mentioned how God will use us wherever we are. He doesn’t always call us to go to foreign lands or places that might be a challenge for us. He doesn’t always call us out of our comfort zone and challenge us. Sometimes he takes the things we are most interested in and he will help us use them for his glory. Let me give you a perfect example.
For my anniversary gift, my husband decided to do something special for me. He knows I love to fish and I haven’t fished since leaving Indiana twelve years ago. He has become acquainted with and become friends with a fishing guide. He uses his boat to take people out to fish. He doesn’t guarantee they will catch fish, but this man does everything he can to make sure you do. We did. In fact, the limit was fifty fish and we caught fifty fish. He did everything he could to make sure our day was wonderful and exciting; it was. He even cleaned and washed the fish.
In the first few minutes of this trip, he got a phone call that he needed to take. He apologized even though we told him he was fine. After all, he owns a business. I tried not to eavesdrop, but you are on a boat and there are not many places to go and take a personal phone call. A few minutes into the phone call this friend started praying for the person on the other end. It was an amazing prayer. It was a heartfelt and tender prayer. We realized afterward he was talking to his seventeen -year -old daughter who was going through some things. He told us he prayed with her often. He and I began to share our faith. We talked about how important prayer was among some other things. He shared with me how he used to take guides on Sunday, but God spoke to him through a friend and he soon quit taking people out on Sundays. God blessed his business. He has made more since he quit taking groups out on Sunday.
As we were finishing up that morning he shared with me that each time before he takes the boat out he prays over the boat and he prays for the people who he will be taking out on the boat. His prayer is if they don’t know Christ somehow let him be able to share Christ with them and open a door. If they knew Christ then may his words encourage or inspire them. He shared with me this is not only a business but a ministry; his mission. We talked about how we can use the gifts God gives us no matter what they are for his glory and his work. This was more than a fishing trip it was an inspiration.
As I came home I thought about the day and how wonderful it really was. I also was inspired by this man. It reminded me that God often takes our gifts that he gives us and helps us use them for his glory. We don’t have to do anything special or be anything special. All we have to do is be willing to give him ourselves and allow him to work through us.
This man took something that he loved to do and turned it into a mission and a ministry. All of us have a something that we are passionate about. All of us enjoy doing that one thing. We take that one thing turn it over to God and allow God to use that one thing for his glory. When we do that we all become missionaries and ministers to the world. The people he touches may never step their foot in the door of a church or they may never be given the opportunity to hear God’s words, but through his business, as a fishing guide, he just may be able to touch a life and open a closed door. He plants a seed.
I was thinking about how many stories there are in the Bible of Christ being in a boat or on the water. How Christ taught us to be fishers of men. How he taught Peter to fish on the right side of the boat. This man is doing the very thing that Christ taught his disciples: to be fishers of men.
So, that brings me to you. What are you passionate about? What is it you like to do? What is your hobby? I challenge you to think this through. Ask friends or family if you aren’t sure. Once you find it I challenge you to ask Christ to show you how you can take that one thing you are good at and make it into a ministry or a mission for His glory.
Sometimes I think we are afraid to ask God about our mission or ministry because we think God will call us out of our comfort zone or call us to go to some foreign land or move half way across the states. This man is a perfect example of what we can do if we give God all we have and all our being. More times than not God will take what we have to offer him and turn that into a ministry or mission. It’s not always about getting out of our comfort zone or moving thousand of miles away.
It’s all about surrendering our lives and the letting go of those things we hold so dear and dedicate them back to him. Once we do that he will bless us in whatever we do.
This guide feeds the souls of men and women. Whose soul can you touch by you doing what you are passionate about?
Dear God I thank you for this lesson, this experience and this new brother in Christ. May I learn from him and find my passion in life. May I take what I am passionate about dedicating it back to you and allow you to use it to feed the souls of those around me. Amen

My Dad’s 95 Birthday!


My dad’s birthday was yesterday. He would have turned 94. While I didn’t mention him on Facebook, I thought about him all day and held him close to my heart. My dad had a hard life. His mother died when he was just a child. His dad raised him with the help of his sister. I think his dad was saddened with the death of his wife. He had a big responsibility raising children. I believe because his mother had died early and there were no women in his life (his sister wasn’t much older than he was) he did not learn the gentleness of a mother’s touch. He did not often have that softness about him that I think our mothers teach us. I am not sure of the circumstances, but, I know he told us he had to go to work really young. There was not much time for play or for having fun. His life was all about growing up fast and working hard.
Much of his background came out as he was raising his four children. We rarely saw the softness of my dad. I remember a few hugs from time to time. He really didn’t learn to play with us, but we did have some great fun times as we got older. He worked construction and farmed our farm as well as help my grandfather on my mother’s side. He seemed to always be away working construction jobs or when he was home he was out in the fields. I don’t think as a child his family celebrated holidays. I don’t think holidays were important to his dad. It was another opportunity to work just like any other day. As a child, I can remember my dad was not about holidays. Those were not his best days. He would always be upset when Mom began preparations for the holidays. Christmas was the exception. He seemed to really enjoy Christmas and being able to give us gifts.
I do believe dad loved each of us in his own special way; it was just different. My dad did go to church with my mom for awhile as we were growing up, but an event happened and he stopped going. It wasn’t until years later and we had moved to a new community that he began going again. He was not the spiritual leader in our family. That was my mom. She was the glue that held us all together. She was also the mischievous one in our family (much like myself). We had lots of fun with my mom while dad was the serious one and provider for our family.
Sometimes my relationship with dad was a bit challenging. Then mom would remind me of dad’s background and suggest I be more understanding of where he came from. The last few years I was his main caregiver or at least until I had to move to Texas when my sister and brother took over. Those years I took care of dad was a blessing to me. I did see his gentleness show and his kindness in the later years of his life. I also saw his stubbornness. We learned to love through our difficult times with each other. I received much more hugs as an adult than I did as a child. Even though those years were difficult I cherished our time together. I think dad did the best he knew how and I think despite his harshness sometimes he wanted the best for me.
So now that brings me to faith. Sometimes our relationship with God is not as it should be. Sometimes we can feel God’s gentleness and other times not so much. Sometimes we can feel God as close as a breath or touch away other times it feels like we are a thousand miles apart.
I think my relationship with my dad had an impact on what I thought about God for awhile. I thought God was a God that worked and provided for us but did not always have time to love me or show much affection toward me. As an adult, I began to realize the kind of relationship I had with my earthly father was not like anything I would have with my heavenly father.
As I mentioned earlier, my dad would be gone for weeks at a time and only show up during the weekend during the most crucial construction time. That is not the way it is with our God. Our God never leaves us. He is with us constantly. Hebrews 13:5 reminds us, “Don’t be obsessed with getting more material things. Be relaxed with what you have. Since God assured us, “I’ll never let you down, never walk off and leave you,” we can boldly quote, God is there, ready to help; I’m fearless no matter what. Who or what can get to me?” While our earthly fathers may not always have been around and maybe even some of them left us this is not what God will do. We do not have to be afraid that God will walk away from us. We may walk away from Him, but he will not desert us ever. We can be rest assured of this truth.
While my dad was the disciplinarian I knew my dad wanted what’s best for us kids. God is the same way. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 We may not always like the plans God has for us, but we can trust God. He wants to prosper us and not harm us. He sometimes has to chisel off the rough places so that we can be the tool that he can use.
My whole life dad provided for me. That’s the same way with God. He provides for our every need. Philippians 4:19 reminds us, “And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Jesus Christ.” God will provide for our needs. He won’t always give us everything we want, but he will provide what we need. I have found this to be so true throughout my life. I may not have all my wants fulfilled but, I do have a house, food, and transportation. I have what is needed most and God has provided. When I wasn’t sure where our next meal was coming from God provided for us. When I wasn’t sure where the next paycheck was coming from for two years, God provided jobs for Greg and I. He was there by our side and he provided for us and he knew the plans he had for us.
While my God may not physically be able to come down and hug me or give me a kiss, he does so through the actions of friends and family. I have received more love, more hugs and more kisses from God’s children than I could ever imagine as a child. I have felt God’s love in so many ways through so many people. I have been touched by so many of God’s chosen ones that I can’t help but feel God’s love for me. Every time I receive a hug, I know it’s God touching me and letting me know I am loved. God is full of love. I John 4:7-8, “Beloved, let us love one another for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God because God is love.”
My relationship with my father was a stepping stone for the relationship I have with my heavenly Father. I was blessed to have the dad I did even though things were rough sometimes. I am even more blessed to have the relationship I have with my Heavenly Father. I may not understand why things happen when they do, or why he does the things he does, but I am sure of this: he provides for me, he loves me and he will never leave me.
What kind of relationship did you have with your earthly father and how does it reflect on your relationship with your heavenly father? Let me just add this if you had a bad or rocky relationship with your earthly father then come and get to know a father who will love you, provide for you and never leave you. He’s waiting with his arms open wide.
Dear God: Thank you for my Father. Even though our relationship was sometimes challenging I know he loved me and I loved him. Thank you for my relationship being a stepping-stone to something better in You. Thank you for providing for my needs, for being there with me all time and for the love I feel from you through others. Amen

I’ve Lost My Identity!


I have lost my identity! Well, sort of. Let me explain. I have five name tags. Two are for my church. One is my name tag as a member the second one is a name tag from the church but with Congregational Care team listed under my name. Another name tag is from church and it says I am a United Methodist Women member. Another name tag has my name on it, but it adds United Methodist Central Texas Conference United Methodist Women ( basically meaning I am on the Conference Team for the UMW). The last one is my name tag for Harvest House as a Client Advisor where I volunteer. Those are just the name tags I need to wear when I participate in each of those activities. That is not to mention that some people call me wife, mother, grandmother, and sister. Along with those titles, I am an Aunt, friend, and neighbor. I could go on, but you get the point.

I have been excellent in keeping them all straight and wearing them as I should and when I should, except for last week. We were busy passing out school supplies at the place where I volunteer. At last count, we gave away 440 backpacks with school supplies in three days. So, to say I was a bit tired at the end of each day is an understatement. One morning I picked up a name tag from the place I volunteer. I went to the organization that morning. The first thing we do is to gather and pray before the clients are welcomed. One of the volunteers came up and said, “Oh, I see you have a new name tag.” Without really looking I said, “No same one I’ve always had.” To which she replied, “Really? It looks different.” I said, “No. Same one.” We went on with our day.

That evening I got home and took off my name tag. The magnet on the back fell off and I leaned down to pick it up when I noticed I had worn the wrong name tag to the wrong place. I laughed thinking back about the conversation I had earlier in the day. No wonder the poor lady was confused and I added to her confusion. Needless, to say the next day I found this lady and apologized. We both had a good laugh.

This brings me to the point I want to make. I may from day to day not know who I am or what exactly my role is for that day, but there is one thing I know for certain. I know whose I am.

In the Bible, it states very clearly that I am God’s child. 2 Corinthians 6:18″And I will be a father to you, And you shall be sons and daughters to Me,” Says the Lord Almighty.”  I may not know who I am at the time, but I know I belong to God. I am his daughter and he is my Father. There is no doubt in my mind.

When I accepted God as a young believer I was adopted into the family and became an heir. “And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ, we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering.” Romans 8:17

As I was looking up scriptures that tell me I AM a child of God I found so many I couldn’t list them all here. If you are in doubt please take the time to look these up and find the many more scriptures that tell you, you ARE God’s child. In the meantime, know for sure if you have accepted Christ you are God’s child. I have the confidence I have been adopted and I am in His family.

So what does it mean to be a child of God? Let’s think this through. When you were born you had a mother and a father. A part of them is in your makeup. You may have your mom’s looks and your dad’s personality. Or you may have a trait that belongs to one or both of them. They are a part of who you are. So, if we believe this then God is in us and we have a part of him in our makeup of who we are.

Remember I am not a theologian, I am just stating what I think. I could be dead wrong, but I think when we are born God is in each of us. There comes a point in our life that we have to decide if we are going to follow him or go out on our own. A part of that decision is based on our circumstances, our environment and our belief system we grew up in. Just as a part of our parents are in us we get the choice as adults to keep that part of our parents with us and stay close or we can choose to be like the prodigal son and go out on our own and live the way we choose. Even if we choose to walk away from God he stays inside each of us yearning for our return. He is always a breath prayer away.

We know if we are heirs of someone we inherit things they leave behind. So if we are heirs of God what do we inherit? First and foremost if we stay with him through the end we will receive eternal life. Very simply put we will be with him forever. The second most important thing for me is the knowledge that since I am his child he is going to stick with me no matter what. He will never leave me or forsake me. Deuteronomy 31:6 states, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

If we are his sons and daughters then we also have been given the Holy Spirit to guide us, direct us and to teach us.

Finally, as sons and daughters, we can know his love, his grace, his mercy, his peace and all the other wonderful things he has promised us.

So while I may not know who I am some days, I know whose I am. I can live with the confidence that I am a child of God.

I want to leave you with a call to worship I did once. I have grown to love it. I think it fits for today.

I Am God’s Child!

Leader: I may be white…I may be black…
All: I may be uptight, but I am still God’s child.
Leader: I may be rich…I may be poor.
All: I might be exciting…I might be a bore;
Leader: But I am still God’s child!
All: I may be big… I may be small…
Leader: I might be going out…I might be coming in;
All: but I am still God’s child!
Leader: Mistreated, unseated…
Leader: Be never defeated, because I am God’s child!
All: I am God’s child!

Go in the confidence that YOU ARE God’s child.

Dear God: I do get a bit confused, but one thing I am sure of I AM your child. I can say that with confidence. Now I need to live like I know I am you, child. Help me to live with the confidence I need to be your child. Thank you for accepting me into your family. Thank you for being my Father and never deserting me.
I love you God and I am thankful for the opportunity to be in your family. Amen